I bought a pair of shorts from VOIR yesterday and I thought I fitted in it real well. But today when I put it on again, it felt tighter than it was the day before. This is so frustrating...
It wasn't cheap (even after discount) and here I am, thinking of ways to make it bigger so that I can fit in. :(:(
All of a sudden, the DAY seems to get closer to me. And to make things worse, I have yet to prepare anything. I'm mentally unprepared, physically unprepared (look worn out lately) and I'm emotionally unprepared! With so many preparations yet to be prepared, I just sound like the most unprepared student ever :P
Okay, you guys can help to make my days easier. Get me a few items that I really want.
Better still, give it to me as my farewell gift!
Straight to the point. I need...
1. a scarf (for fashion and it's going to be damn cold when I reach there)
2. a backpack (preferably the max air grey backpack from Nike which costs RM189)
3. a pair of sneakers cos mine are so old and they look like they need to be replaced! Oh, i wear a size 8 (US size). Keep that in mind! >.<
4. electronic gadget, be it a mp3 player or ipod or walkman (I love to sing!)
5. a dress. I love the part in dramas where the guy presents the girl with a really nice dress. Owhh...
That should be it. I hope to receive calls on the contributions you want to make for me SOON!
OH, and if you're sweet enough, get me the mary jane pair from Nike too! RM219 only. Blue color.
I hope I don't sound too greedy back there cos this poor student-to-be here needs to spend on other more important stuffs.
Waiting patiently for your calls.
Ciao. >.<
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Only 30 days in June nia....
Sadly, there are only 30 days in June!
Why???!!! Why only 30 days?
I wish the month of June is longer, so that I can accommodate everything that I want to do into this very period. But, despite all my rants, it is not going to get any longer. It will never be. Unless I choose to ignore July and skip from June to August. I know, you must be thinking, what the hell is wrong with me to be saying such nonsense?
I admit, I'm crazy!
And Ping suggested I consult a psychologist to nurse my worsening depression, or so she called it.
But then again, I still wish I have more time.
Arrrghhhhh.......I had such a hard time sleeping and eating lately. Something has been bugging me. or maybe someone. I don't know. I'm just confused. Very. To the stage of reaching madness. To the stage of being addressed as siao ca bo.
I told Ping, I wish I could teleport YOU to be with me wherever I go. You don't have to shout, I know it's just plain selfish of me to do that. But, I couldn't be bothered anymore. This time, I want to be selfish! I'm not listening to what others have to say anymore. I shall live my own life my own way!
The rest, piss off.
P/s: Just wondering, am I the only one feeling this way?
I really hope that "if the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more, I will still have YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU"
Stupid me, I'll go to sleep now. Because it will never happen.
Why???!!! Why only 30 days?
I wish the month of June is longer, so that I can accommodate everything that I want to do into this very period. But, despite all my rants, it is not going to get any longer. It will never be. Unless I choose to ignore July and skip from June to August. I know, you must be thinking, what the hell is wrong with me to be saying such nonsense?
I admit, I'm crazy!
And Ping suggested I consult a psychologist to nurse my worsening depression, or so she called it.
But then again, I still wish I have more time.
Arrrghhhhh.......I had such a hard time sleeping and eating lately. Something has been bugging me. or maybe someone. I don't know. I'm just confused. Very. To the stage of reaching madness. To the stage of being addressed as siao ca bo.
I told Ping, I wish I could teleport YOU to be with me wherever I go. You don't have to shout, I know it's just plain selfish of me to do that. But, I couldn't be bothered anymore. This time, I want to be selfish! I'm not listening to what others have to say anymore. I shall live my own life my own way!
The rest, piss off.
P/s: Just wondering, am I the only one feeling this way?
I really hope that "if the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more, I will still have YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU"
Stupid me, I'll go to sleep now. Because it will never happen.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Today marks a milestone in my life!
I think I scared the hell out of my friends with my driving but don't worry, they got back safely and I am safe as well. Due to Ee Ping's stern reminder to be in QB by 1.45pm sharp, I sped on the roads and ignored basic traffic rules. I believe I've carved a bad name for myself on the road and I won't be surprised if I were to be labelled as the 'worst driver in penang'. It's still an award, isn't it?
So, the plan today was to meet up and update ourselves about each other. We had lunch at Kenny Rogers and I was really anticipating a good meal like what I had many many years ago. But, it was so disappointing because the mashed potatoes tasted real bad and the food wasn't appetising at all. Sigh. No wonder Nando's outperformed Kenny's in just a few years. You've got to improve, Kenny Rogers!!! Make your mashed potatoes taste like real MASHED POTATOES!
After dropping off nette, we went to pick up Pin Yin and headed for some real hawker food. In the midst of dinner, Pauline's laughter was so LOUD that people nearby looked at us like we were some crazy morons. I bet they were just a bunch of lonely souls who never know the meaning of laughing from the heart. :P
It was a great day.
I'm happy.
Tired too.
I think I scared the hell out of my friends with my driving but don't worry, they got back safely and I am safe as well. Due to Ee Ping's stern reminder to be in QB by 1.45pm sharp, I sped on the roads and ignored basic traffic rules. I believe I've carved a bad name for myself on the road and I won't be surprised if I were to be labelled as the 'worst driver in penang'. It's still an award, isn't it?
So, the plan today was to meet up and update ourselves about each other. We had lunch at Kenny Rogers and I was really anticipating a good meal like what I had many many years ago. But, it was so disappointing because the mashed potatoes tasted real bad and the food wasn't appetising at all. Sigh. No wonder Nando's outperformed Kenny's in just a few years. You've got to improve, Kenny Rogers!!! Make your mashed potatoes taste like real MASHED POTATOES!
After dropping off nette, we went to pick up Pin Yin and headed for some real hawker food. In the midst of dinner, Pauline's laughter was so LOUD that people nearby looked at us like we were some crazy morons. I bet they were just a bunch of lonely souls who never know the meaning of laughing from the heart. :P
It was a great day.
I'm happy.
Tired too.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Looking for a missing item....something that lives in my heart
Whenever I tried to sleep, it just felt as if it was the most difficult task in the world. There's something missing in my life but I just have no idea what it is (or perhaps I do not even want to know what it is). The night seemed longer than usual and I could hear every single detail and every single sound that was being made. The sound of my neighbour opening the gate and unlocking the door, the cats meow-ing, the dogs howling, and finally the sound of my own breathing. This total silence was really freaking me out and it was made worse when I couldn't even sleep. Tonnes of images rushed to surround my eyes whenever I tried my best to sleep, causing me to be awake more than ever and there went my marathon of wild thoughts.
Am I doing the right thing now? What is the best for me? Am I sure that it is the best for me? And how sure am I that what I've missed is good or bad for me? These questions were never-ending and they were meant to be answered before I could finally sleep. However, I simply do not have the answers to all these and in the end, I just could not sleep. It's like a cycle that I have to endure through the night. Questions popping out ---> Answers to be filled in ---> Can't sleep without answers ---> Questions re-popped (if there's a word) and it goes on and on.
Truth be told, I'm just good at running and escaping from the facts instead of facing them courageously. This, I've got to admit that it has been within me since I was born 20 years ago and there is certainly no cure for this. I'm just scared. Afraid. Unable to face the harsh reality. Unable to fight the big blow that is soon to be thrown to me. All in all, I'm a coward.
2am. The questions finally came to a halt. And just when I thought I could finally get a great night's sleep without any disturbance, I was wrong. Because that was just the beginning of everything. Next up, I have to face the worst of all, my highly-imaginative and overrated DREAMS which do not make sense at all most of the time. Ironically, the answers to my questions are being answered in my dreams. When it's the answer that I really really anticipate, I rejoiced and danced over it but when it was far from the way I want it to be, I jolted awake. :::(((
I believe my dark under eyes circle can justify as to whether I had a good or bad dream over the last few nights.
I need an antidote. And you know what it is.
Am I doing the right thing now? What is the best for me? Am I sure that it is the best for me? And how sure am I that what I've missed is good or bad for me? These questions were never-ending and they were meant to be answered before I could finally sleep. However, I simply do not have the answers to all these and in the end, I just could not sleep. It's like a cycle that I have to endure through the night. Questions popping out ---> Answers to be filled in ---> Can't sleep without answers ---> Questions re-popped (if there's a word) and it goes on and on.
Truth be told, I'm just good at running and escaping from the facts instead of facing them courageously. This, I've got to admit that it has been within me since I was born 20 years ago and there is certainly no cure for this. I'm just scared. Afraid. Unable to face the harsh reality. Unable to fight the big blow that is soon to be thrown to me. All in all, I'm a coward.
2am. The questions finally came to a halt. And just when I thought I could finally get a great night's sleep without any disturbance, I was wrong. Because that was just the beginning of everything. Next up, I have to face the worst of all, my highly-imaginative and overrated DREAMS which do not make sense at all most of the time. Ironically, the answers to my questions are being answered in my dreams. When it's the answer that I really really anticipate, I rejoiced and danced over it but when it was far from the way I want it to be, I jolted awake. :::(((
I believe my dark under eyes circle can justify as to whether I had a good or bad dream over the last few nights.
I need an antidote. And you know what it is.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
OH yeah, babe. It is much better for me without supper. I don't feel THAT bloated when I woke up this morning.
Two thumbs up this time.
It's my off day for the week! After standing for a horrendous 8 hours almost every day, my feet can finally get their much deserved rest. I'm going to just sit at home today, and abstain from making long walks around the house. This is how lazy I can get when I don't work. Also, I ought to finish that cat-and-mouse series, Last One Standing latest by today because there's just 6 more episodes left!
Then, I need to start building up my playlist by searching for more SAD and EMO songs. This is such a difficult task but I believe I am fit for the job :P
Furthermore, I'm welcoming the return of a really good, pretty, smart, nice, kind, understanding, bright and successful friend. To conclude, she's just so SWEET.
I'm off for now.
By the way, have you seen him around?
*cries*
Two thumbs up this time.
It's my off day for the week! After standing for a horrendous 8 hours almost every day, my feet can finally get their much deserved rest. I'm going to just sit at home today, and abstain from making long walks around the house. This is how lazy I can get when I don't work. Also, I ought to finish that cat-and-mouse series, Last One Standing latest by today because there's just 6 more episodes left!
Then, I need to start building up my playlist by searching for more SAD and EMO songs. This is such a difficult task but I believe I am fit for the job :P
Furthermore, I'm welcoming the return of a really good, pretty, smart, nice, kind, understanding, bright and successful friend. To conclude, she's just so SWEET.
I'm off for now.
By the way, have you seen him around?
*cries*
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
It's exactly 11.30am as I'm penning this down. There's nothing so special or significant about the time anyway, so don't bother too much about it.
I believe the late night suppers have taken a toll on my health. My stomach feels so disturbed every morning and it just got worse and worse every day. However, nothing much can be done about it. I have to eat supper after work every night or else, I can't sleep. Too hungry to sleep, to be precise.
So, I'm hereby declaring that supper has become a part of me, despite me warning my friends to stay away from it. Mind you, my supper is never 'light' in terms of calories but those are really heavy ones. Let me recap, I took pork chop rice four nights ago, a big bowl of chicken soup three nights ago, koay teow soup two nights ago, McChicken last night and I'm already thinking of what to eat tonight. I'm sure it's just a matter of time before I eventually start to pile on those weight.
XD.
Plus, I've just added a playlist to the blog like minutes ago! The songs pretty much resemble my mood and so, stay tuned if you would like to find out my mood for the day or week.
It's gonna be a list of super sad songs!
I like it.
Thumbs up.
Love.
I believe the late night suppers have taken a toll on my health. My stomach feels so disturbed every morning and it just got worse and worse every day. However, nothing much can be done about it. I have to eat supper after work every night or else, I can't sleep. Too hungry to sleep, to be precise.
So, I'm hereby declaring that supper has become a part of me, despite me warning my friends to stay away from it. Mind you, my supper is never 'light' in terms of calories but those are really heavy ones. Let me recap, I took pork chop rice four nights ago, a big bowl of chicken soup three nights ago, koay teow soup two nights ago, McChicken last night and I'm already thinking of what to eat tonight. I'm sure it's just a matter of time before I eventually start to pile on those weight.
XD.
Plus, I've just added a playlist to the blog like minutes ago! The songs pretty much resemble my mood and so, stay tuned if you would like to find out my mood for the day or week.
It's gonna be a list of super sad songs!
I like it.
Thumbs up.
Love.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Loving it.
It's such a romantic scene and I absolutely love Chen Kun (who is the guy inside the video).
Another video by a local guy, with the title Huai Ren.
Call me the goddess of sad songs!! Wahahahaa........
It's such a romantic scene and I absolutely love Chen Kun (who is the guy inside the video).
Another video by a local guy, with the title Huai Ren.
Call me the goddess of sad songs!! Wahahahaa........
No title
The house is a lot quieter without him. His laughter, his cries and his smell. Even Aun misses him a lot and kept calling out his name the moment he wakes up.
Sigh, we just miss him ~ our baby Chen Ying aka Fei Fei.
He is like a Malaysia version of Shayne Ward, maybe just a lil younger.
But you can't deny that he's cute. Charming. Captivating.
And look at the way both of them sleep. Same pattern, same style, same posture.
He even inherited some of my cuteness. Sigh.
How can I not miss him?
He probably won't remember me when he's older, but at least we had the wonderful moments together. Something that no one can rob us of.
I don't know why but I just couldn't sleep lately. It takes an hour or two of rolling on the bed before I could finally sleep and this is really traumatising.
Why am I not sleeping when everyone else is?
Worse is, I'm resorting to extreme measures to get myself to sleep. Something which I would not have done in the past. I ate until I was very full minutes before bedtime and I made myself really tired during the day so that I'm able to get a shut-eye at night. But, they don't seem to work. I kept on jerking out of my sleep every once in a while.
And when I could finally sleep (thank God), the nightmares are never ending. They just came pouring in like the stream and arrghhh...it just doesn't feel good.
Never mind, I shall try other methods today. I will tell you if they work or not.
Andddddddd, before I forget, I need to share with you a song that I really really like and I'm so into it right now.
It's Pei Sing Dai Yuet by Hins Cheung. I don't quite understand the title and the words in the song but I just love the chorus. I reckon it's a sad song btw.
Back soon XXXXD
Sigh, we just miss him ~ our baby Chen Ying aka Fei Fei.
He is like a Malaysia version of Shayne Ward, maybe just a lil younger.
But you can't deny that he's cute. Charming. Captivating. 
And look at the way both of them sleep. Same pattern, same style, same posture.
He even inherited some of my cuteness. Sigh.How can I not miss him?
He probably won't remember me when he's older, but at least we had the wonderful moments together. Something that no one can rob us of.
I don't know why but I just couldn't sleep lately. It takes an hour or two of rolling on the bed before I could finally sleep and this is really traumatising.
Why am I not sleeping when everyone else is?
Worse is, I'm resorting to extreme measures to get myself to sleep. Something which I would not have done in the past. I ate until I was very full minutes before bedtime and I made myself really tired during the day so that I'm able to get a shut-eye at night. But, they don't seem to work. I kept on jerking out of my sleep every once in a while.
And when I could finally sleep (thank God), the nightmares are never ending. They just came pouring in like the stream and arrghhh...it just doesn't feel good.
Never mind, I shall try other methods today. I will tell you if they work or not.
Andddddddd, before I forget, I need to share with you a song that I really really like and I'm so into it right now.
It's Pei Sing Dai Yuet by Hins Cheung. I don't quite understand the title and the words in the song but I just love the chorus. I reckon it's a sad song btw.
Back soon XXXXD
Friday, May 1, 2009
I'm yours.
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
And now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my best test
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved
So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'ma saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A lá one big family (2nd time: A lá happy family; 3rd time: A lá peaceful melody)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
No please, don't hesitate
No more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is yours!
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
And now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my best test
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved
So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'ma saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A lá one big family (2nd time: A lá happy family; 3rd time: A lá peaceful melody)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
No please, don't hesitate
No more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is yours!
