I always feel like I'm deprived of many things. While my peers have it, I don't.
But eventually, I start to accept that life isn't always like how you wanted it to be.
Gold bars won't just drop from the sky for you just because you need and you want it. Needless to say, you will have to work hard to dig your own gold bars from some other source.
Just a random thought.
But, maybe not so random after all.
Yucks.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
No title
Home is the place that I want to be at this very moment.
I wish time would move faster.
Heartache :'(
I wish time would move faster.
Heartache :'(
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
A week's post all cramped up in an entry
20 years old doesn't make me feel any different, in fact, it is pretty much the same. I still look the same, speak the same way, and think the same. Well, maybe I've got to think differently now that I'm a young adult and no longer a teenager. So, how do I start with? Okay..think like a 20yo by planning what I really want to achieve in my life. Or, how do I flirt with the cutest guy in university without trying too hard. Maybe not..I'll just stick to the way I should behave like a 19yo.
So, birthday's over and exam was long long over! Still, the stress from exams has not entirely dissolved during the holidays. Not when you unexpectedly receive an email from the university announcing that results will be out first thing on Nov 30th and since my family name falls in the category of L to O, my life will be dictated at 9.30am sharp. I probably wouldn't be able to sleep well on the night before. I reckon I'll even dream about me performing really bad and not being able to explain to parents when they have spent so much on sending me here. Thanks heaps, parents! (though they might not see it here).
My birthday was eventful (to me, at least). I slept with a heavy heart because I really wanted to be back home for the so-called big day. Oh, and I had a really bad dream that night. It was bad because it wasn't something that I had expected it to be and it was really disappointing. Anyway, I woke up feeling really tired and that was when I reached my phone and saw multiple messages from my really good friends. I was so eager to read them that I brought the phone into the toilet so that I'll be able to read them the minute I finish brushing my teeth. The messages were really sweet and I was really happy that November 12 still registers in their head. On top of that, I got a voice message as well! Thank God I had set the voice mail on my phone days before, or else I might just miss out a birthday song.
The sender of the voicemail was none other than Connie, who started off by commenting just how 'hiao' I sounded on the pre-recorded voice message. Awwhhh...seriously you should listen to her voice on the voicemail. I think she sounded worse than me, worse in the sense that she is more 'hiao'. Cheersss :) The highlight of the point is: I couldn't believe that I saved her voice message just so I could hear her voice whenever she is busy. Doesn't sound so right, does it? Well well well, ultimately, the voice message is now saved and locked and once in a while, I actually listen to it. =.=
Besides spending my time in front of the laptop browsing through Facebook (again!), I also invited myself over to my friend's apartment (truth is she invited me, of course) and made quite a mess in her kitchen. Not exactly a mess, but drops of the curry that I was attempting to cook just keeps on popping out of the pot and onto the floor. And she doesn't have that special type of cleaning agent for the floor so we basically used the cleaning product for the stove. End result? The floor was in patches and I automatically ruled out curry for the rest of my cooking dishes in the future. Thanks Heaven that the curry tasted really good. It was almost similar to the ones we usually feast on in Thai restaurants, except that mine was a bit spicier and healthier (lots of veges inside).
It was technically my third time cooking here. First was the night before I cooked for Yi Hui on her birthday. I had cooked minced pork with brocolli, with sister coming to rescue the moment I poured the garlic onto the pan :P But it was all well over at Yi Hui's. Don't believe? Ask her for yourself!! It also reminded me of the silliness while we were shopping for the ingredients at Coles. The recipe was for 10 big prawns and since the big prawns here were a bit heavy on our pockets, we opted for the smaller-sized prawns which was on sale at that time. That was when the deli operator came to us and asked if we needed anything. I proudly told her I wanted 10 prawns =.= which stunned her for a moment because the prawns were pretty small and to have 10 of that size was maybe a bit, funny. But we didn't think much at that moment and after walking off from the aisle, we realized we should buy more since it might not be enough. So, that was when we went back to the deli and told her the weight that we wanted. 200 grams of prawns. Now, she doesnt give that 'look' anymore. *grins and relieved*
Sorry, back to the birthday bit. I was travelling back alone after my cooking session at my friend's place, with earphones plugged into my ears, bearing the song ' Wei shen me ni shua huang' by Ding Dang which was a reallly super emo song. As you know, I can be easily affected and listening to that song the whole day kinda brings the juice of the song into my soul. So, there I was, being 'not-quite-happy' on my Birthday, which was really silly now that I think about it. So glad that it was over now.
I was 'surprised' with an expensive cake from Lindt which costs around AUD40 or more. The fact that I inverted commas (not sure what is it called) the word surprised was because it wasn't technically a surprise. No birthday song was sung and he even had the guts to 'rant' about the price of the 'happy birthday' chocolate plate which costs AUD5. I was guilty the whole night. =.=
Still, thank youuuuu so much to Joanne, Connie and Por Wei for the cake. I wobbled it down in two days. :)
Also, to those whom I've not thanked, don't be offended. I'm still very much thankful to you all for remembering this date and hopefully, this date will be remembered as the day 'an angel was born'. Ahem....aka ME :)
So, birthday's over and exam was long long over! Still, the stress from exams has not entirely dissolved during the holidays. Not when you unexpectedly receive an email from the university announcing that results will be out first thing on Nov 30th and since my family name falls in the category of L to O, my life will be dictated at 9.30am sharp. I probably wouldn't be able to sleep well on the night before. I reckon I'll even dream about me performing really bad and not being able to explain to parents when they have spent so much on sending me here. Thanks heaps, parents! (though they might not see it here).
My birthday was eventful (to me, at least). I slept with a heavy heart because I really wanted to be back home for the so-called big day. Oh, and I had a really bad dream that night. It was bad because it wasn't something that I had expected it to be and it was really disappointing. Anyway, I woke up feeling really tired and that was when I reached my phone and saw multiple messages from my really good friends. I was so eager to read them that I brought the phone into the toilet so that I'll be able to read them the minute I finish brushing my teeth. The messages were really sweet and I was really happy that November 12 still registers in their head. On top of that, I got a voice message as well! Thank God I had set the voice mail on my phone days before, or else I might just miss out a birthday song.
The sender of the voicemail was none other than Connie, who started off by commenting just how 'hiao' I sounded on the pre-recorded voice message. Awwhhh...seriously you should listen to her voice on the voicemail. I think she sounded worse than me, worse in the sense that she is more 'hiao'. Cheersss :) The highlight of the point is: I couldn't believe that I saved her voice message just so I could hear her voice whenever she is busy. Doesn't sound so right, does it? Well well well, ultimately, the voice message is now saved and locked and once in a while, I actually listen to it. =.=
Besides spending my time in front of the laptop browsing through Facebook (again!), I also invited myself over to my friend's apartment (truth is she invited me, of course) and made quite a mess in her kitchen. Not exactly a mess, but drops of the curry that I was attempting to cook just keeps on popping out of the pot and onto the floor. And she doesn't have that special type of cleaning agent for the floor so we basically used the cleaning product for the stove. End result? The floor was in patches and I automatically ruled out curry for the rest of my cooking dishes in the future. Thanks Heaven that the curry tasted really good. It was almost similar to the ones we usually feast on in Thai restaurants, except that mine was a bit spicier and healthier (lots of veges inside).
It was technically my third time cooking here. First was the night before I cooked for Yi Hui on her birthday. I had cooked minced pork with brocolli, with sister coming to rescue the moment I poured the garlic onto the pan :P But it was all well over at Yi Hui's. Don't believe? Ask her for yourself!! It also reminded me of the silliness while we were shopping for the ingredients at Coles. The recipe was for 10 big prawns and since the big prawns here were a bit heavy on our pockets, we opted for the smaller-sized prawns which was on sale at that time. That was when the deli operator came to us and asked if we needed anything. I proudly told her I wanted 10 prawns =.= which stunned her for a moment because the prawns were pretty small and to have 10 of that size was maybe a bit, funny. But we didn't think much at that moment and after walking off from the aisle, we realized we should buy more since it might not be enough. So, that was when we went back to the deli and told her the weight that we wanted. 200 grams of prawns. Now, she doesnt give that 'look' anymore. *grins and relieved*
Sorry, back to the birthday bit. I was travelling back alone after my cooking session at my friend's place, with earphones plugged into my ears, bearing the song ' Wei shen me ni shua huang' by Ding Dang which was a reallly super emo song. As you know, I can be easily affected and listening to that song the whole day kinda brings the juice of the song into my soul. So, there I was, being 'not-quite-happy' on my Birthday, which was really silly now that I think about it. So glad that it was over now.
I was 'surprised' with an expensive cake from Lindt which costs around AUD40 or more. The fact that I inverted commas (not sure what is it called) the word surprised was because it wasn't technically a surprise. No birthday song was sung and he even had the guts to 'rant' about the price of the 'happy birthday' chocolate plate which costs AUD5. I was guilty the whole night. =.=
Still, thank youuuuu so much to Joanne, Connie and Por Wei for the cake. I wobbled it down in two days. :)
Also, to those whom I've not thanked, don't be offended. I'm still very much thankful to you all for remembering this date and hopefully, this date will be remembered as the day 'an angel was born'. Ahem....aka ME :)
Thursday, November 5, 2009
something a bored person have got to say
Bored, bored, bored
I never stop complaining about anything. People that I meet, food that I eat, things that I wish I should have done and questions I wish I could have known the answers to! I know just how I annoy some people sometimes by filling each conversation with never-ending rants! *sorry, you guys just got to bear with this sick woman*
With plenty of time, I started clicking through Facebook and exploring the pages of my friends whom I've not talked to since we added one another. Woahh, people sure have changed! Some looked gorgeous, some were at incredible places and some were still, very much the same (like me!)
Once done with that, I proceeded to read famous blogs and unwillingly fill myself with envy when I see the kind of life that they are having. Most of them travel occasionally and they always have loads of things to talk about even if there is nothing interesting. Well, it does keep me occupied by browsing through their entries one by one, and digging their old entries. At least for a while! Two hours have passed since then!
I'm so free right now that I have no idea on what I should do tomorrow, the day after the tomorrow, the day after the day after tomorrow and many many more days to come! I come to realise just how phobic I am of boredom, even for only a day.
I even complained to Pauline about how lucky she is for being so busy but she cut me off by telling just how much she prefers my not-so-busy lifestyle. Not quite a compliment, ei? I think I would prefer to be busy. At least time moves on faster that way. But now, the clock is ticking so slow that it gives me a sudden urge to just hack into the clock system and change all the time and date to the moment that I want! Maybe fast forward a couple of years (or more than 10 years) to my wedding day or the day when I'll sit inside the office, helping my husband with his business and expanding it globally. Of course, I also note the possibility of that not happening and that is why I put 'or more than 10 more years' up there. Do you think it will happen?
It's only 22 hours after my last paper and I can't believe that I am feeling so freaking bored like I have been on holiday for weeks or months! My dramas collection are all dried out and I seriously am the NON-BUSIEST person in the world! Why oh WHY!!!!
Worse, I also grew tired of the food here. It's always Jap, Malaysian or Chinese and nothing more! Sometimes, even bread or maggi taste nicer than those. See? I'm complaining again..
@.@ (Teik Wei's fav MSN and FB icon)
That's about it.
If you can still see the next post, it means that I haven't quite died from boredom. YET.
I never stop complaining about anything. People that I meet, food that I eat, things that I wish I should have done and questions I wish I could have known the answers to! I know just how I annoy some people sometimes by filling each conversation with never-ending rants! *sorry, you guys just got to bear with this sick woman*
With plenty of time, I started clicking through Facebook and exploring the pages of my friends whom I've not talked to since we added one another. Woahh, people sure have changed! Some looked gorgeous, some were at incredible places and some were still, very much the same (like me!)
Once done with that, I proceeded to read famous blogs and unwillingly fill myself with envy when I see the kind of life that they are having. Most of them travel occasionally and they always have loads of things to talk about even if there is nothing interesting. Well, it does keep me occupied by browsing through their entries one by one, and digging their old entries. At least for a while! Two hours have passed since then!
I'm so free right now that I have no idea on what I should do tomorrow, the day after the tomorrow, the day after the day after tomorrow and many many more days to come! I come to realise just how phobic I am of boredom, even for only a day.
I even complained to Pauline about how lucky she is for being so busy but she cut me off by telling just how much she prefers my not-so-busy lifestyle. Not quite a compliment, ei? I think I would prefer to be busy. At least time moves on faster that way. But now, the clock is ticking so slow that it gives me a sudden urge to just hack into the clock system and change all the time and date to the moment that I want! Maybe fast forward a couple of years (or more than 10 years) to my wedding day or the day when I'll sit inside the office, helping my husband with his business and expanding it globally. Of course, I also note the possibility of that not happening and that is why I put 'or more than 10 more years' up there. Do you think it will happen?
It's only 22 hours after my last paper and I can't believe that I am feeling so freaking bored like I have been on holiday for weeks or months! My dramas collection are all dried out and I seriously am the NON-BUSIEST person in the world! Why oh WHY!!!!
Worse, I also grew tired of the food here. It's always Jap, Malaysian or Chinese and nothing more! Sometimes, even bread or maggi taste nicer than those. See? I'm complaining again..
@.@ (Teik Wei's fav MSN and FB icon)
That's about it.
If you can still see the next post, it means that I haven't quite died from boredom. YET.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Library
Why am I not getting stuffs I need into my head?
Has the 5 days gap been too long? Leaving me half spirited here facing the exam...?
**
Before I forget, I need to share with you the acts of some 'got-brain-but-dunno-how-to-use' people in the library. Three things that I've noticed so far, all in a day.
First up, there are people who study with their headphones, blaring their music so loud that people from nearby cubicle can technically hear the 'ooo-ooo-eee-eee' sound. Mind you, we can't hear what song they're playing but we are definitely disturbed by the alien sound. They must be enjoying it so much that they forgot they are in the library and people come to the library to study, not to listen to their songs!
Next, this one is the most classic one! I was studying when I heard someone talking (by himself, only heard one voice) so I reckoned he was on the phone or something. I had my patience and I waited for 5 minutes for him to hang up. But weirdo! He was video-conferencing at the quiet study area. He has got to learn how to respect others.
Lastly, this girl took up three cubicles, all by herself! One for her to put her bag, another one for her to sit and the other one for her to put her legs. Wah, sounds like she is having a big business when apparently, NO! She makes herself way too comfortable, hence ignoring the feelings of people who want to sit at the very spot she puts her legs at.
Ironically, no one complains about any of the abovementioned acts.
So, automatically, I also keep my mouth shut. *zipped*
Has the 5 days gap been too long? Leaving me half spirited here facing the exam...?
**
Before I forget, I need to share with you the acts of some 'got-brain-but-dunno-how-to-use' people in the library. Three things that I've noticed so far, all in a day.
First up, there are people who study with their headphones, blaring their music so loud that people from nearby cubicle can technically hear the 'ooo-ooo-eee-eee' sound. Mind you, we can't hear what song they're playing but we are definitely disturbed by the alien sound. They must be enjoying it so much that they forgot they are in the library and people come to the library to study, not to listen to their songs!
Next, this one is the most classic one! I was studying when I heard someone talking (by himself, only heard one voice) so I reckoned he was on the phone or something. I had my patience and I waited for 5 minutes for him to hang up. But weirdo! He was video-conferencing at the quiet study area. He has got to learn how to respect others.
Lastly, this girl took up three cubicles, all by herself! One for her to put her bag, another one for her to sit and the other one for her to put her legs. Wah, sounds like she is having a big business when apparently, NO! She makes herself way too comfortable, hence ignoring the feelings of people who want to sit at the very spot she puts her legs at.
Ironically, no one complains about any of the abovementioned acts.
So, automatically, I also keep my mouth shut. *zipped*
