Overrated

Birthdays.

My 21st hasn't been a very good one. And it doesn't feel good when people keep asking me about it. And it is sad when you had expected a bit more because someone promises that something good will happen and eventually fell out of her promise. I'm not playing a blame game here. I just hope that I can gain a bit of appreciation for the stuffs I do. It doesn't have to be material wise, a genuine and sincere birthday wish is more than enough. Ah, birthdays. How overrated.

Myself

I think it's best to list out all my weaknesses rather to have them pointed out to me by others.



1) I am thrifty. I dont think that equates to stingy. Thrifty to me, is the ability to calculate the best deal for myself at all times. Some people call me cheap. But, I couldn't care less. I know where my source of money comes from and I know I should use it wisely and not succumb to peer pressure to spend to impress people I don't even give a second hoot about.



2) I am self-centred. That's because I refuse to do certain things that will rob me of my comfortability.



3) I am a coward. Not having the courage to speak out against things I don't like definitely makes me a chicken.


More to come.

2012 and days!

I did my homework (by visiting a few blogs) before I finally decided to watch 2012. Alone.

Yes, I watched it alone. All my movie kakis are back in their respective hometowns and I was left to watch it alone. It wasn't THAT bad after all, so to say =D



I think it's the last day that they're premiering it here and I don't think I'd be able to wait for 2 more months until I'm back in Penang. So, there I went, to watch a catastrophe-type movie on my own. It also meant that I had no one to discuss with when I don't understand a particular scene and no one to look at when the scene is too real and scares the hell outta me. Bah!


My honest opinion would be that it will not be much of a loss if you don't watch it. Seriously, it isn't that awesome or great like how I thought it would be. It was just average and since there is not much movies to watch now, you can give it a try :D I'm saying it with a 'very forced' tone though, if you note that. Nevertheless, the movie is still a great snapshot of what it will be like when it is time for a new calendar to start. So, watch it if you are very bored like me :)



I finally worked enough days to pay for my air ticket. I earned around aud95 a day and since I've worked for five days, I'm glad to say that I can buy my OWN air ticket back to Penang :) Hooray for that but what I really need to do now is to work more to buy another ticket back here, which is equivalent to another 5 days of work. After that, the wages will be fully used to support my expenses here for the next 2 years. Phone bills, textbooks, entertainment, lunch and shopping. Gah ;(

Although it hurts to see my money being spent on tickets, it also felt good at the same time.

I always feel good when I'm able to do something on my own without burdening others. This, I shall celebrate eh? Ta!

;)

I always feel like I'm deprived of many things. While my peers have it, I don't.

But eventually, I start to accept that life isn't always like how you wanted it to be.
Gold bars won't just drop from the sky for you just because you need and you want it. Needless to say, you will have to work hard to dig your own gold bars from some other source.

Just a random thought.

But, maybe not so random after all.

Yucks.

No title

Home is the place that I want to be at this very moment.

I wish time would move faster.

Heartache :'(

A week's post all cramped up in an entry

20 years old doesn't make me feel any different, in fact, it is pretty much the same. I still look the same, speak the same way, and think the same. Well, maybe I've got to think differently now that I'm a young adult and no longer a teenager. So, how do I start with? Okay..think like a 20yo by planning what I really want to achieve in my life. Or, how do I flirt with the cutest guy in university without trying too hard. Maybe not..I'll just stick to the way I should behave like a 19yo.

So, birthday's over and exam was long long over! Still, the stress from exams has not entirely dissolved during the holidays. Not when you unexpectedly receive an email from the university announcing that results will be out first thing on Nov 30th and since my family name falls in the category of L to O, my life will be dictated at 9.30am sharp. I probably wouldn't be able to sleep well on the night before. I reckon I'll even dream about me performing really bad and not being able to explain to parents when they have spent so much on sending me here. Thanks heaps, parents! (though they might not see it here).

My birthday was eventful (to me, at least). I slept with a heavy heart because I really wanted to be back home for the so-called big day. Oh, and I had a really bad dream that night. It was bad because it wasn't something that I had expected it to be and it was really disappointing. Anyway, I woke up feeling really tired and that was when I reached my phone and saw multiple messages from my really good friends. I was so eager to read them that I brought the phone into the toilet so that I'll be able to read them the minute I finish brushing my teeth. The messages were really sweet and I was really happy that November 12 still registers in their head. On top of that, I got a voice message as well! Thank God I had set the voice mail on my phone days before, or else I might just miss out a birthday song.

The sender of the voicemail was none other than Connie, who started off by commenting just how 'hiao' I sounded on the pre-recorded voice message. Awwhhh...seriously you should listen to her voice on the voicemail. I think she sounded worse than me, worse in the sense that she is more 'hiao'. Cheersss :) The highlight of the point is: I couldn't believe that I saved her voice message just so I could hear her voice whenever she is busy. Doesn't sound so right, does it? Well well well, ultimately, the voice message is now saved and locked and once in a while, I actually listen to it. =.=

Besides spending my time in front of the laptop browsing through Facebook (again!), I also invited myself over to my friend's apartment (truth is she invited me, of course) and made quite a mess in her kitchen. Not exactly a mess, but drops of the curry that I was attempting to cook just keeps on popping out of the pot and onto the floor. And she doesn't have that special type of cleaning agent for the floor so we basically used the cleaning product for the stove. End result? The floor was in patches and I automatically ruled out curry for the rest of my cooking dishes in the future. Thanks Heaven that the curry tasted really good. It was almost similar to the ones we usually feast on in Thai restaurants, except that mine was a bit spicier and healthier (lots of veges inside).

It was technically my third time cooking here. First was the night before I cooked for Yi Hui on her birthday. I had cooked minced pork with brocolli, with sister coming to rescue the moment I poured the garlic onto the pan :P But it was all well over at Yi Hui's. Don't believe? Ask her for yourself!! It also reminded me of the silliness while we were shopping for the ingredients at Coles. The recipe was for 10 big prawns and since the big prawns here were a bit heavy on our pockets, we opted for the smaller-sized prawns which was on sale at that time. That was when the deli operator came to us and asked if we needed anything. I proudly told her I wanted 10 prawns =.= which stunned her for a moment because the prawns were pretty small and to have 10 of that size was maybe a bit, funny. But we didn't think much at that moment and after walking off from the aisle, we realized we should buy more since it might not be enough. So, that was when we went back to the deli and told her the weight that we wanted. 200 grams of prawns. Now, she doesnt give that 'look' anymore. *grins and relieved*

Sorry, back to the birthday bit. I was travelling back alone after my cooking session at my friend's place, with earphones plugged into my ears, bearing the song ' Wei shen me ni shua huang' by Ding Dang which was a reallly super emo song. As you know, I can be easily affected and listening to that song the whole day kinda brings the juice of the song into my soul. So, there I was, being 'not-quite-happy' on my Birthday, which was really silly now that I think about it. So glad that it was over now.

I was 'surprised' with an expensive cake from Lindt which costs around AUD40 or more. The fact that I inverted commas (not sure what is it called) the word surprised was because it wasn't technically a surprise. No birthday song was sung and he even had the guts to 'rant' about the price of the 'happy birthday' chocolate plate which costs AUD5. I was guilty the whole night. =.=
Still, thank youuuuu so much to Joanne, Connie and Por Wei for the cake. I wobbled it down in two days. :)

Also, to those whom I've not thanked, don't be offended. I'm still very much thankful to you all for remembering this date and hopefully, this date will be remembered as the day 'an angel was born'. Ahem....aka ME :)

something a bored person have got to say

Bored, bored, bored

I never stop complaining about anything. People that I meet, food that I eat, things that I wish I should have done and questions I wish I could have known the answers to! I know just how I annoy some people sometimes by filling each conversation with never-ending rants! *sorry, you guys just got to bear with this sick woman*

With plenty of time, I started clicking through Facebook and exploring the pages of my friends whom I've not talked to since we added one another. Woahh, people sure have changed! Some looked gorgeous, some were at incredible places and some were still, very much the same (like me!)

Once done with that, I proceeded to read famous blogs and unwillingly fill myself with envy when I see the kind of life that they are having. Most of them travel occasionally and they always have loads of things to talk about even if there is nothing interesting. Well, it does keep me occupied by browsing through their entries one by one, and digging their old entries. At least for a while! Two hours have passed since then!

I'm so free right now that I have no idea on what I should do tomorrow, the day after the tomorrow, the day after the day after tomorrow and many many more days to come! I come to realise just how phobic I am of boredom, even for only a day.

I even complained to Pauline about how lucky she is for being so busy but she cut me off by telling just how much she prefers my not-so-busy lifestyle. Not quite a compliment, ei? I think I would prefer to be busy. At least time moves on faster that way. But now, the clock is ticking so slow that it gives me a sudden urge to just hack into the clock system and change all the time and date to the moment that I want! Maybe fast forward a couple of years (or more than 10 years) to my wedding day or the day when I'll sit inside the office, helping my husband with his business and expanding it globally. Of course, I also note the possibility of that not happening and that is why I put 'or more than 10 more years' up there. Do you think it will happen?

It's only 22 hours after my last paper and I can't believe that I am feeling so freaking bored like I have been on holiday for weeks or months! My dramas collection are all dried out and I seriously am the NON-BUSIEST person in the world! Why oh WHY!!!!

Worse, I also grew tired of the food here. It's always Jap, Malaysian or Chinese and nothing more! Sometimes, even bread or maggi taste nicer than those. See? I'm complaining again..

@.@ (Teik Wei's fav MSN and FB icon)

That's about it.

If you can still see the next post, it means that I haven't quite died from boredom. YET.

Library

Why am I not getting stuffs I need into my head?

Has the 5 days gap been too long? Leaving me half spirited here facing the exam...?

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Before I forget, I need to share with you the acts of some 'got-brain-but-dunno-how-to-use' people in the library. Three things that I've noticed so far, all in a day.

First up, there are people who study with their headphones, blaring their music so loud that people from nearby cubicle can technically hear the 'ooo-ooo-eee-eee' sound. Mind you, we can't hear what song they're playing but we are definitely disturbed by the alien sound. They must be enjoying it so much that they forgot they are in the library and people come to the library to study, not to listen to their songs!

Next, this one is the most classic one! I was studying when I heard someone talking (by himself, only heard one voice) so I reckoned he was on the phone or something. I had my patience and I waited for 5 minutes for him to hang up. But weirdo! He was video-conferencing at the quiet study area. He has got to learn how to respect others.

Lastly, this girl took up three cubicles, all by herself! One for her to put her bag, another one for her to sit and the other one for her to put her legs. Wah, sounds like she is having a big business when apparently, NO! She makes herself way too comfortable, hence ignoring the feelings of people who want to sit at the very spot she puts her legs at.

Ironically, no one complains about any of the abovementioned acts.

So, automatically, I also keep my mouth shut. *zipped*

Hot!!!!!!

28C!!! And it's not going to stop. It's going to increase further to 30C on Monday before dipping low to 19C again on Wednesday. The unpredictable weather here is just exactly like my appetite. Sometimes, I felt so hungry that a plate of rice doesn't seem to justify my tum tum at all, but once I look at the mirror, I know that I have to control!!! Summer is approaching and I wouldn't want ppl to go "Wah, GIANT LEGS!!!" when they look at my not-so-skinny legs. AHHHH.....

Haven't been studying since my third paper ended on Thursday. Instead, I was busy catching up on my story books and also. movies!! Plus, the hot weather doesn't help much either!! Seriously, 28C here felt like 32C in Penang. I'm now wondering how to survive in summer on 48 -50C!!!!

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Anddddddddd, I'm so looking forward to 4th Nov, the day my exam ends and then end of nov, Dec, Xmas, New Year, Chinese New Year...until school starts again in March. My life has fallen into a routine. Wake up, eat, online, eat, sleep...time passed really quickly when you live a life like mine! Hah!

Need to be more thrifty now, gotta save up for summer dresses :) !!!!!

=(

First up, :(

I need to shout out loudddddddddd that I am upset, because I am not happy. Just had my first paper today. It was supposed to be the easiest one (seriously,) but I screwed up quite badly. Having said that, I think I am going to sink into depression soon. There are 3 more papers before I sink even further into major depression. Ahhh :( How come others get $2.45 while I get $2.45?????? (part of the question) WHHHHHHHYYY?

I suspect someone has done something to my calculator, giving me the wrong answers. Good, now I'm becoming paranoid. :S

Someone, pls shoot me

Three freaking papers in a WEEK!!!!! I am officially brain dead.

The more I study, the more I panic. The more I panic, the more I don't know what I studied. Anyway, I should probably take it easy as it comes. Nothing could be hard for me if I know I have put my very best to it. *grins*

The past week has been really hectic. Studying from morning to night, with limited access to Facebook and also MSN. Imma proud of it.

MAJOR STRESS, MAJOR BREAKOUT

DISASTER!!!

-I had no idea what I was talking about above-

just when i thought i had it, i realized i had nothing in fact

One day, my friend asked me, "Do you have a best friend? Show me her picture on Facebook."

It took me a while before I could finally gave her an answer. I know that it is a very simple question. Say yes if I have one and say no if I don't. Anyway, I think further than that.

If we treat someone as a best friend, but we don't turn out to be the best friend of that person, is she still considered as your best friend? Yes? No? I don't even know.

To clear this up, I am not emo. Just a random thought that struck me while I listened to a song about Friends.

Exam blues?

Having studied for 6 hours continuously yesterday, my brain is in a total malfunction today. Cant even write or read now. KO

:(

The other time, I had a complaint about a girl who said that I was anti-social. Since then, we had talked less as I was totally pissed with her attitude.

But as luck would have it, I had another person whom I dislike.

This girl (ALSO A MALAYSIAN) just pisses me off everytime she speaks.

Whenever I tell her anything, she always begins with 'I KNOW...bla bla bla..' It's not the word that upset me. It's the way she rolled her eyes when she uttered the word and made me look like an idiot. She acted as if she knows everything, when apparently, I think she is just pretending to know everything.

Looking at her is an eyesore. Her pencil box, bag, shoes and nails are all the same color.

Ahhh...I think I'm dying soon.

Caulfield to Springvale!

Both Yi Hui and I felt that it was time to relax ourselves and take a day off our busy schedule to go shopping. We weren't sure if shopping would help to prepare us for the upcoming exam or not, but we were definitely excited about going to the biggest mall in Australia (or so they say).

The moment I arrived in Caulfield, Yi Hui brought me to visit her uni and I immediately felt like a tourist in her hands.
Anyway, I wasn't so intrigued by the university itself. Rather, I will have to give my praises to her for introducing a good restaurant with a good lunch.

Crispy noodles with braised chicken. And oh, it tasted awesome. Kept me asking for more.

And this is her favourite beef curry rice. I don't have to tell you how good it was. Look at the next picture.

She was clearly very satisfied and happy with her choice of meal. See that?

Right after lunch, we took a train to Chadstone. I was admittedly more excited than her about going to Chadstone, since it was my first.

And so, I thought that Chadstone is going to be huge, like MidValley or Queensbay or even bigger than both.

Omg we finished circling the whole mall in less than an hour. it isnt as big as i thought it would be! I had no idea why it is deemed as the biggest mall here. Maybe it is big because they had Myer, David Jones, Woolsworth and Coles alongside with all the retail shops. Or maybe because all the high-end shops just sent me running?

Somehow, not that satisficing because I had not bought what I wanted to buy.

Immediately, a brilliant idea flashed across Yi Hui's mind. We were going to Springvale to get some mangoes. And off we went, led by the thirst for mangoes.

I told you. We were really excited!
P/s: Note how the guy carried the baby =.=

We took a bus back to Caulfield before taking another train for the fruits. We were happily chatting on the train as usual and that was when I came up with one of the 'most intelligent' question ever. I asked Yi Hui on which was the last station before we enter zone 2. Okay you see, here, we have zone 1 and zone 2. Hence, we have separate tickets for the different zones and a failure to produce the right ticket at the correct stop will result in us being fined for...a handsome amount of AUD172. Per person. No discount even if we are students. =.=

After the question was posted, she smiled to me. Stop chatting and checked her phone.

"I think springvale is in zone 2"

My heart failed at that very moment. We were both carrying only zone 1 tickets. Our hearts paced faster and faster and we were betting on our lives that there wont be any officers around to check our ticket on the train. We passed the first round. There were indeed no officers on the train. Thus, the beatings of our heart slowed down :)

But when we were about to reach the Springvale station, we almost suffered heart failure. There were at least 6 to 7 officers there, blocking the exit and checking every one's ticket as they walked past. Yi Hui managed to calm me down a little by saying that they'll be entering the train to check and since we were already out of the train, we were, technically...safe.

Her assumption was way wrong! They did not board the train. They were still there. WTF.
Hundreds of thoughts were playing in our mind at that time. One thing for sure, we shall never ever admit our fault. We will deny it until the very end because we were seriously unaware of the zone. And to be fined for AUD172 is seriously idiotic.

So, we had our tickets on our hands and we braved ourselves to walk past the officers. I was already prepared to cry there, if that can gain me some sympathy :P

Ironically, they checked every one's tickets except ours. We were a bit lost at that moment and quickly exited the gate. Okay, I lied about the exiting part.

I was walking slowly and Yi Hui was gently pushing me from the back. Seriously, I wanted to run but my legs just wouldn't move. I reckoned it's muscle failure, coupled with multiple heart failures earlier.

We were somehow dazed with what happened earlier and we walked aimlessly for a while before deciding what to do. I guess food plays a good cure as it helps us to refuel our body and also divert the focus from our brain to our stomach.

Pork bun. It's good. It's filling.

It made me smile too. And forget about the ticket crisis.

Not forgetting the role of bubble tea that also helped to calm both of us down.

Ahh...we definitely need more rest now.

Weather, exams

The weather has been pretty wild lately.

I'm glad that we don't have to wake up to red sky or experience dust storm just like what they had in Sydney. Melbourne is still very much, safe and sound. All we have to do is just to bear with the sudden changes in the weather. Though it's spring now, it feels like winter and the moment the wind blows against your face, it felt icy cold.

Hot or cold?

I don't even know. Sometimes, when it's too hot, I prefer it to get a lil bit colder. Now that it's cold, I wish it would turn a lil warmer. Never get enough of everything, huh? :P I actually have a reason to dislike winter, and also summer.

With winter, I get hungry easily. It's like my digestive system works extra hours during this season and I crave for food every few hours. The consistent walks to school doesn't help either, as what goes into my mouth far exceeds what I had burnt. That's the analysis I came out with after noticing just how much fat has been stored in my body since I came here during winter.

Then, talking about the summer..I've never personally experience any summer yet but there was one particular day during winter which felt extremely warm. Although it recorded only a temperature of 23 Celcius, it felt even warmer than Penang's 31 Celcius. It wasn't only hot, it was stuffy as well. Like we were all trapped inside a microwave oven or something.

I'm only good at coming out with bad and lousy reasons and I know that.

Anyway, I'm well informed that exam is in a month's time but I'm still lack of the motivation to prepare for any of the papers. My life has fallen into a routine now. Wake up in the morning, attend lectures/tutorials, read story books, prepare dinner, continue the story and then head straight to bed. The next day, I repeat the same routine without changing the sequence of the activities. Doesn't sound so good with exam knocking on the door.

I guess I'm getting a Bachelor of Facebook or major in procrastination.

Not a good sign, not a good sign.

Thoughts

I get stage fright all the time....

And I just don't understand.

I always have a set of carefully planned lines dancing in my mind before I got up the stage. But when it's finally my turn to speak, my mind just went totally blank. And to add fuel to this, I laughed. I reckon I looked like a total idiot when I did that but anyway, it is over *cries*.

Done with that.

You know, I remembered hearing from my sister about how the Chinese boys who were born here will automatically look good to us, Malaysians even when they are not really 'that' good-looking.

It's perception. And we're too judgmental. We always perceive them as good looking merely because they can speak with an accent.

I guess this is another character of true Malaysian, alongside the fact that we automatically develop an 'angmoh' accent when speaking with an 'angmoh'.

Malaysia, Truly Asia

Sometimes,

It's important that I put my words into action.

Skipping rope which costs me around aud5. It's blue btw.

And the park with lovely people doing lovely things with lovely dogs.

This is probably the spot that I'm going to do my skipping at.

Sometimes, the weather just felt so right that you don't wanna go home even after you're all sweaty and stinky.

I'll prolly bring my law book and study here. Lie on the field, just like what the locals love to do.

A while ago,

I was contemplating visiting Phuket for bungee jumping.


Seriously, it's a very sudden thing. It's like I woke up one day, and I had this inner feeling that tells me 'You've got to freaking TRY THIS!'


I really want to experience the thrill of jumping and being pulled down by gravity. Fly like no one cares and just challenge my mental strength! Well, all these just sounds so good that it makes me want to do it right now, at this very moment.


But, I think I just got to put this plan on hold. First, I don't have a partner who wants to do bungee jumping with me and #2, I've yet to be financially stable. I mean, I would really want to go on a trip with my own money, rather than fishing them from my parents. Having said this, I reckon I'll take maybe years, to be at that desired state of life.


Anyway, I think I can wait.

Just not too long.

Camberwell

I've been bugging Yi Hui for a week now to get the pictures.

Now that I've gotten them, I wish she had never sent them to me. wtf.

The pictures are horrible! Both of us....

No choice but to edit it (till beyond recognition) so that I can put them up!

We stopped by Sofia Pizza House at Camberwell to have our brunch. We were so hungry, so we decided to get a plate each. What a wrong decision!

The portion of the food was HUGGEEE. Enough for 3 meals in fact. If I had finished it that day, I wonder how I'll look now. 3 times bigger maybe?

This is something that I ordered. Can't remember the name but I know it sounded really awesome. I had the first taste of it and I went, "Crap! Should have ordered something more common!".

Like spaghetti bolognaise. Simple yet delicious.

We were bad shoppers for that day. Went back almost empty-handed.